Almost his 1st Birthday!

Hello dear friends!

Hope you all had wonderful Christmases! Just sitting in the car right now with PawPaw Garry and Kerr-Bear driving through the snowy roads of Kentucky remembering what I felt last year at this time. Killian was coming. We knew that one way or another, life would never be the same. To this extent, we could have never known.

The days leading up to his grand (really grand) entrance were a torturous mix of anxiety, joy and helplessness.  With only a 40% chance of survival in utero, all we could do was pray.  And pray we did.  Then....he was here.

Killian Kayne Lambert. Born January, 2, 2012. Broken. Fighting. Defying.

I remember everything about that day.  The laughs with Lindsey when her water broke (Lake Killian as the nurse called it).  The hard plastic chairs in the waiting room that were unbearable to sit in, let alone try to sleep in.  The preparation for battle- at least that's what it felt like.

Then...the text from dad, "he's here!" The joy and then the sinking, fleeting happiness as the team of nine it took to deliver him then rushed passed, now focused on simply keeping him alive. There were no encouraging looks.  There were no thumbs up. But I did catch a glimpse of his precious face and then I prayed until it hurt.

After hours of equal parts tears and prayers, we met him. Our little Warrior.  We could have never known the blessing he would be to us and so many others. I could have never know how close he'd bring me to my family and my God.

For those of you who know our story, you know that there were many days we never even fathomed a first smile, a first tooth, a first Christmas....or a first birthday.  But guess what folks- HERE WE ARE!!

God is good all of the time! Many of you prayed for us when we couldn't pray anymore and there is nothing we will ever be able to do to repay you!

Aunt Layna is on her way to Nashville for a 1st Birthday Praise Party like you've never seen! Will post lots of pictures soon!! Can't wait!

Xoxo lot of love,
Aunt Layna